everything i love will be over someday
everything i love, every friend i have, every relationship that i have ever been in has always ended at one point in time or another. everything i once knew will be over someday. i have no more faith in myself whatsoever to continue going on like this so i firmly believe i will fuck up and sever the last bonds i have. you all tell me you will never leave me, never break up with me, never stop being friends with me but it will all pass. the feeling will pass. it will go away, you will no longer feel motivated to continue our friendship and at some point, you will leave. i can already predict it, i can see it coming. if you don't stop things with me now, it will all come to a halt at the end. i can see it in my vision. there is no reason to know me and there is no reason to keep going on.
or i could say may death do us part, because like the faith i have in our relationships and friendships i do not think there is much time left for me on earth. this is not my suicide note. i just don't think i can go on for much longer, will it ever get better?