i just don't care that much anymore
oh my god, like, oh my god. i have literally turned a MAJOR new leaf in my life. i do not give one fucks two fucks about what anyone thinks of me anymore. i did some crazy embarrassing shit the other day, well not really the other day more like EVERY SINGLE DAY and i GENUINELY DON'T CARE!!!!! I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK!!!!!! i am so, so glad i have turned into a dgaf person. because OH i remember months ago i was sooo freaking worried about what the next person thought about me. like, thank fuck i don't care anymore. there just isn't any point in changing people's opinions about you NOR do i have the TIME of DAY to be changing MYSELF FOR OTHER PEOPLE!!!!! OMG I JUST DO NOT CARE!!!!!! i don't CARE if you hate me i don't CARE if you think i'm annoying OMG. I DO NOT FUCKING CARE! of course there are some exceptions, like if my friends are irritated with me of course i'll feel bad. but if it's literally anything else my god i just couldn't care less. i don't care about your opinion about me i don't care if you think i'm corny i don't care if you look at your friend and grimace every time i speak in class omg i do not care. i think it's funny. i mean sure, i feel bad for a split second, i think 'oh my god why'd i do that that's so embarrassing' and then i clock myself and i think like AM I MEANT TO GIVE A FUCK OH MY GOD. I DO NOT CARE ANYMORE!!!!! I LITERALLY DON'T CARE!!!!! I DON'T CARE IF YOU THINK I'M A HO OR A SLUT OR A BITCH OR ANNOYING OR CORNY OR CRINGEY OR RETARDED I JUST DON'T CARE. i myself and people around me know how i really am. so if i can't change a stranger or a distant friend's perception of me, why do i even bother? i know myself better than anyone else. i don't need people to tell me who i am